Thursday, August 09, 2007
nvr have i tot it would end up lyk this...still regretting wat i did...only 4 months left and i could have spent them jux being happy talking and all...but now...im jux praying hard tat things will be lyk normal tho i noe it wouldn't be...haix...God...i would lyk to relive ytd again...
today went for church games day...and already i felt weird standing amongst the ppl who were litted with smiles and laughter...even while taking the pic...giving a smile felt unnatural to me now...soccer my team lost...and after tat went for lunch at downtown east...bought kickapoo a.k.a joy juice...tot it would have lived up to its name...but drinking it didn't help at all...thruout the day i was quiet...very! lunch was as good as eating by myself...no one was talking...sorry guys if i made the atmospshere felt awkward...then was driven home...silent the whole way back...jux staring out the window...then reached home...found out i didn't bring hse key and no one was at home...so i sat down outside my hse for abt an hour plus...being alone was a very sad feeling...i didn't noe wat to think...i jux looked out at the sky...it was a nice blue colour...then...i jux turned to God...spent the whole hour jux talking to Him...jux vomitting out my feelings to Him...and i really felt better after tat...i still rmb the first time we knew each other...and as the days went by after our first meeting we chatted lyk anything...chat non stop lyk we were good good frens and everything we said was interesting to each other...it was...really! enjoyed every minute of it!! well...i really thank God for blessing me with you...for introducing u into my life...and always bringing a smile onto my face without fail...when i'm sad, you made me smile. when i'm happy, you made me smile MORE! i truly thank God for u! =)
jux ran to my window to see the airplanes from NDP fly pass my hse...how i wish i was in one of them...then ill jux fly away...weeeeee......fly fly fly away from here
express yourself {Thursday, August 09, 2007}
