Tuesday, August 28, 2007
i guess things in life don't always turn out the way they're supposed to...
take for example the picture of a granny but if u look at it from another direction its a young lady...another example would be 2x2=4 but square root of 4 may not be 2 but can also be -2...or how compatible things are but yet they nvr seem to get along...things aren't always what they seem are they? and dun u get pissed off when its lyk tat? hahas...
after all tat's happened in my life...i think God really made me open my eyes to a lot of stuff unknown...He made me realise jux how fragile the things in this world are...well...maybe not in a physical sense...lyk how damn good frens can be jux so freaking far jux after a change of heart and words of honesty from the bottom of it...since when did our teachers or parents ever mention abt the negative effects of moral values? it has always been "we should not tell lies!!" or "honesty is the BEST policy"...sigh...sometimes i wished i could jux go back in time to change wat i've done...have u ever wat would happen if the things tat happened didn't happen? gosh...we would still be talking, laughing, joking lyk theres no tomolo...looking eye to eye, waving, smiling, saying "hi"...really regretted doing what i did...maybe if i kept it to myself things would be so much better...=)
so right now i'm jux thinking how to forget you and all the things tat happen...and i noe for myself tat its impossible to...coz either way it would still hurt the same...maybe not to u...why would u feel hurt?well...really hope ur not...guess i'll jux be going home straight everyday...less on the com...jux one-to-one with my books...waiting for time to fly by...and soon it would jux be a really sad bye-bye for me...mite as well jux erase each other from our heads to ease wateva pain we may have.
really having a bad headache now...i feel so drained...so...demoralised...so...lifeless...so...not myself...rarr
i really need to chill!! jux take a break from EVERY SINGLE THING...
and having a kit kat would be the last thing on my list...
seriously...all i want now is jux to go to tat secret place...
where there's nothing else but me and You...
longing for Your presence...
Lord, take all this heavy load of crap off me...i'm tired of carrying it all by myself...
i'm jux tired...
really tired right now...
sigh...
express yourself {Tuesday, August 28, 2007}
