Sunday, August 19, 2007
God...why do this to me? and NOW of all times...during my important exam periods! is it to demoralise me and see all my efforts put into my studies go down the drain? or probably Your sitting up in heaven laughing at how pathetic i look? well...the only reason i see for You laughing at me is how I'm not trusting in Your unfailing love!
a test of my faith...
a test that not only I go through...
but a test that Peter, and even Jesus when He was on earth went through...
and what better timing to test my faith than during my prelim's and O's
i know that if i pray and i believe...miracles will happen...
but i noe my prayer would be more of wat i want and not of wat You want...
a prayer that would most lykly go "i pray tat You would jux restore this lost relationship and make it even better"
how i wish that would be the case...
i noe its not entirely impossible coz i noe not of wat God has planned in my life
but i ask and pray that Lord, You would give me the strength and courage to say this four little words:
Your will be doneso at the end of the day...would i pass the test? this test of faith?
would i fail lyk Peter? not once, not twice...but three times?
i really hope i dun fail...but even if i do...
i noe God's grace will always be there to lift me up
even as my prelim's start tomolo...i noe i'd be affected damn badly...emotionally and mentally...man...breaking down and blanking out seems so real to me rite now...
God, be my strength
be my anchor in this raging storm...
be my hope that i cling on
be my everything
express yourself {Sunday, August 19, 2007}
