Saturday, August 11, 2007
been doing some soul searching this few days, in various places...macs, field, parent's room, my room, toilet blah blah blah...and i can't help but notice a part of me really wants to be angry and pissed with u? i mean...u asked the qn...u wanted to noe the ans...all i did was do the right thing...answering ur qn...and it took a lot of courage to say it...and look wat happened next? its one of those situations when doing the right thing always leads down the wrong path...that part of me really feels tat its totally undeserved...it wants to go to the highest mountain in the world and jux scream and shout and be a rarring monster for one day...
but then...i noe i can't be angry with u? i would nvr be angry with u...i jux can't bring myself to. so the other parts of me are trying to tell the angry part of me that its my fault...i dun wanna be angry with you since ur still having ur other problems...i understand how ur feeling...i really do...haix...i wonder if anyone would feel the same way i'm feeling in my shoes...
is my anger justified?
well...im not pissed with u...i jux need to vomit how im feeling out before i die suffering...yeah...
and at the end of the day...would you know how i feel?kkz...better prepare myself for baptism later...hmm...dun think anyone going for my baptism ba...sigh...feeling kinda sad la...oh well...but i noe u all are happy for me..so...i can somehow feel all of ur "aura of happiness" with me now...hahas...bye!=D
express yourself {Saturday, August 11, 2007}
